It hurts.

Everything hurts right now. Her picture in my wallet, her messages, her everything. It hurts me to let go, it hurts me more when she asked me to find a better one. What should i do now, I'm confused! I love her still...

What Happened To Me?

2 days, less than 10 messages between us. She was busy and i understand that. She text me the other day when she was finally free. But i pushed her away. Why!?!?! How can i treat her like that! I regretted for treating her in such way. Perhaps it's just too hard to let her go out of my arms? Is letting her to hate me an easier way? I'm so confused now! I love her too much... Alright, time to go to work now. I still love you xl...

Another song.

I'm in school currently.feeling a little bad mood so i wrote her another song. This song is call "teach me" by yangjie.
Everytime i close my eyes,
i would see her beautiful eyes,
when i tried to walk away,
everyday day is just not my day,
when i hope this is the last,
i always hold on to the past.
Till the last...

So teach me,
let me breath,
so teach me,
don't tease me,
please teach me cause i'm stupid,
cause i don't deserve,
all these things when i love you...xl.
I'm there for you,
when you need me,
if my dreams come true,
everything would be a bliss,
so why don't you, close up the door and love another man,
and why can't you,
love me instead me another man,

so teach me,
let me breathe,
so teach me,
don't tease me,
please teach me cause i'm stupid,
cause i don't deserve,
all these things when i love you, xl...




I still love you very much xl...


Love,
Yangjie.

Well, something happened last night. It's not a good thing. Anyway, was feeling really moody in school, so i decided to write her a song. It's from my heart.

This song is called "For You" By Yangjie.

You're better off without me,
I'm like the barrier of your dreams,
I am sure you'll be happy,
Cause the only choice is to leave me.

And i know its hard,
for the both of us,
Stay together is not,
just not for us,
I rather be sad,
When I am apart,
from you.

Oh~

i won't regret,
for the things that I've said,
I won't look back,
For the things we had.

There's something in my heart that i want to say,
and something in my mind i wish i can pray,
for you, for you...
There's something in my heart that i want to say,
and something in my mind i wish i can pray,
and i know its hard,
for the both of us,
Stay together is not,
just not for us,
I rather be sad,
when we're apart,
I rather be SAD,
when we're apart...


So that's it for the song. The full song will be posted later on in the future. i would like to dedicate this song to her. Hope she will have a better life and relationship in the future with him.


Love,
Yangjie.

Something from my heart.

you're like the fire burning inside my heart,
its explainable like the born of the stars,
so yes i love you and its deep from my heart,
you'll be feeling me when we're not apart...

so marry me now,
cause there are no frowns,
and you will never be alone,
as you'll be in control,
cause love is all we have,
and the crown will be your hat.
So love me...

Well, she told me something which is quite shocking about 2 hours ago. It's 2 o'clock in the middle of the night right now and i can't seem to get myself any sleep. So, above is a song i'm working on for her. I know the lyrics are simple, and not really that meaningful, but hey, it's from my heart. I've taken some serious considerations about the thing she told me just now, and my message to her is, Hey bii, i think this is a test given by God to us, I know sometimes we can't control our feelings towards people, but there are ways to prevent it. For example, reduce the sms rate between you guys and tell him that we're together already. I know and i understand that the fact of he is a good guy, a gentleman perhaps, but bii, don't you think that letting him into our baby relationship will only cause damages instead of greatness? I'm not stopping you from seeing him or what(you know yourself) so, you still can sms with him or go out with him even after you tell him everything. Like i said, I've changed and i can accept just about anything. I just think there's a little bit of a waste if everything between us is ruined because of this issue. In conclusion, the decision is in your hands bii, i know you love me and i love you, so whatever you do, remember that there will always be a guy at your back, supporting you silently.(That's me!) Sorry, i can't sleep and it's not your fault, don't blame yourself. Its a test from God, so now i would like you to take my hand, side by side and face it together with me okay? One is a loner, two is great and three is a crowd. I believe, together, we can achieve greatness bii. I still can't sleep so there's no good night, i think i'm staying up all night. Anyway, I love you and no matter what are the people are gossiping behind us, I still know that we love each other. I love you. Have a nice comfy sleep. =]

I love you. There's no doubt of it. Hope we can last LONG. I'm super in love with her right now. So, patching back with celine? No way people. Not in a Trillion years. I love you Xl. nights.

I love you.

I don't want another pretty face, I don't want just anyone to hold, I don't wan my love to go to waste, I want you and your beautiful soul. I know, that you, Are something special, to you, I'll be, always faithful... Whatever it is, I just want you to know that i love you. Maybe my words will never ever touch you. But i tried? Nothing to say today, just missing you very much... And i love you Bii... You're everything to me, I don't want to lose you ever again. I love you.