What Happened To Me?

2 days, less than 10 messages between us. She was busy and i understand that. She text me the other day when she was finally free. But i pushed her away. Why!?!?! How can i treat her like that! I regretted for treating her in such way. Perhaps it's just too hard to let her go out of my arms? Is letting her to hate me an easier way? I'm so confused now! I love her too much... Alright, time to go to work now. I still love you xl...